I'm so worried about pustular acne ㅜㅜ

I've been really worried about my pustular acne lately ㅠㅠㅠ It's really bothering me because the inflammation is severe and it's accompanied by pain.. When I get a red, yellow, swollen pimple, I want to pop it with my hands, but I can't easily touch it because I'm afraid of leaving a scar. I'm always worried about whether I should go to a dermatologist to treat my pustular acne or if it will get better with home care.. I think that spicy foods and stress can affect it, so I try to pay attention to my eating and lifestyle habits, but it doesn't get better easily, which is frustrating ㅜㅜ
I need help from those who have tried managing pustular acne.